Thursday, June 12, 2008

how to find.....

searching but could not find
i dont know whats going on
is there something wrong with me?
i keep thinking, what should i do to find it, should i change, or just keep it like usual
believing is needed, but sometimes i want to know the clue
where should i search
i need it so much, to taking care, for be there by my side
is this a mistake?
for hoping?
hoping is good, but without any clue, hope sometimes can be wasting time
i am believer, i believe in Him
i dont ask for much.....
i now that i have the time.
time that already set for me
but...
until when?
i dont want to end up lonely....
i need it....
not jealousy, its only a willing
willing to have, willing to be have
could anyone understand, could anyone help?
not hurt, just the answer....
the answer of my prayers.......

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

detik-detik keberangkatan...

guwe masih deg-degan...apa bener2 kita bisa berangkat ke austria yach....padahal kita sama sekali ngak megang dananya...gue akan tetep deg-degan sampe harinya tiba neh...
masih ada keraguan di hati gue...Tuhan apa bener kita bisa berangkat ikut kompetisi di austria?
POkoknya gue hanya berserah, Tuhan pasti punya rencana indah buat gue....
walau terkadang gue sering penasaran, kira-kira rencana Tuhan dalam hidup gue tuch apa yach....bisa ngak sih gue dikasi sedikit clue, apakah gue akan menyukainya ato nggak? hehehe lucu juga sih...tapi seiring gue berpikir spt itu, gue juga ngerasa bersalah banget.
udah bagus gue dikasi kecukupan, masi aja penasaran dengan rencana Tuhan buat hidup gue.
kok jadi melenceng jauh dari judul blog yach...
ya sut lah...pokoknya gue berserah sama Tuhan Yesus
Rencana Tuhan indah senantiasa....