Saturday, April 17, 2010

My version : 10 things I hate about you

1. I hate the way you look at me while we were talking
2. I hate the laugh that we shared when I make jokes
3. I hate the way you discover my personality
4. I hate that you are the first guy that I cried on your shoulder
5. I hate your attention when I was in sorrow
6. I hate that I could tell you my secrets
7. I hate that you are the first person I looked for when I need a friend
8. I hate that you gave me an unforgetable birthday present
9. I hate that you said you care about me
And
10. I hate that I still can't stop thinking about you...
Damn you,boy....

Heartbreak cause Hurtfeeling then Stay away from him

Awalnya gue tidak ingin menumbuhkan perasaan suka gue terhadap dia, karena gue sadar begitu banyak rintangan...
Tapi perasaan itu menetap dan gue pikir bagaimana kalao gue lanjutin aja...tidak peduli dengan rintangan...dengan harapan bisa merubah realita...ternyata realita yang sesungguhnya diluar perkiraan...
hari itu...sehari sebelum Paskah...kami sepakat untuk membicarakan kelanjutan hubungan kami...baru aku sadar kalau selama ini dia cemburu dengan orang lain yang pernah dekat dengan gue, tapi gue udah menjamin perasaan gue terhadap dia masih sama dan belum tergantikan oleh orang lain...dia menanyakan tentang perasaan gue yang sebenarnya thd hubungan kami....tapi bagaimana dengan perasaan dia terhadap hubungan kami????
di malam itulah dia memutuskan untuk tidak meneruskan hubungan kami, setelah gue paksa untuk menetapkan kejelasan hubungan kami.
gue sangka dia akan fight bersama gue menghadapi rintngan, tetapi ternyata dia mengatakan untuk TIDAK meneruskan hubungan kami....
seketika itu gue seperti nggak injak bumi, langkah gue menuju gereja seperti melayang layang, padahal gue harus latihan dan harus menyanyi pada waktu subuh...
hingga semalaman gue seperti merasa tidak berada di dunia (inikah rasanya patah hati yang sebenarnya??)
Gue nggak bisa menahan perasaan gue dan akhirny semalaman gue hanya bisa menangis, merasa bodoh dengan diri sendiri dan merasa kecewa dengan pilihannya....kenapa dan kenapa??? hal itu yang saat itu terngiang ngiang....
hingga esok subuh saat menyanyi pun, gue harus menutupi wajah gue yang sembab dengan make up yang tebal...tetapi tetap tidak mampu menyembunyikan kesedihan gue....
hari itu...saat paskah itu...gue memutuskan untuk menjauh darinya....kuputuskan untuk tidak berbicara bahkan berteman dengan dia (seperti yg pernah kulakukan dgn cowo yg gue cinta dulu)....gue katakan ama dia untuk tidak berteman dengan gue sampai gue recover....gue delete dy dari friend facebook dan twitter....
hubungan gue dan dia hanya sebatas profesional saja.....
entah sampai kapan...semoga gue bisa sembuh kembali dari serpihan serpihan yang telah dia hancurkan......

BACKSTREET BOYS JAKARTA FLASHMOB

Aaarrrggghh… That was the first reaction when we were about to meet with all BSB fans in Jakarta, Indonesia!! The meeting was to talk about BSB worldwide project called “Flashmob” to celebrate their 17th birthday on April 2010!! Awesome, right?!! Of course we will participate in Flashmob!! You know what does it mean?? Dance!!!! Yep, you read it right! We will make a dance video in public doing “Straight Through My Heart” choreography. Exactly the same choreography as the boys did in their video.

Wait...That wasn't enough to describe how damn exciting we were. Why? Well yeah, because not only us to participate celebrating OUR LOVELY TIGERS. But THOSE FANS' expression faces!! OMG!! Most of us are the “old face” of BSB FANS!! By the “Old Face” means we have been a fan since their first album. See, how loyal we are in warming their music journey, even though now without KEVIN...Hiks3x...But, it's OK cuz this isn't time to let the tears roll down, but to scream "WE DO LOVE U, GUYS!! And one heart just for our beloved KEVIN (never missed!! )

The first meeting was held on 26 Feb, 2 days before BSB concert in Singapore. Some of us were going, but unfortunately some had to miss it. At this meeting, we shared some duties to make this project works. Some of us responsible to look for a shooting location, preparing the banners, accommodation, until renting a professional cameraman, etc. And we did it all with LOVE!!

The second meeting was attended with more BSB fans than before. It was pretty darn exciting seeing some are still in high school beside the “old faces” that mentioned earlier. The most grownups are the same as AJ and while the rest are under NICK CARTER's age. But anyway, it doesn't matter. The most important thing is that we all have one big love for Backstreet and willing to do a dance clip even though we are not a pro. No wonder we got a dance shock! How could it not, just imagine!!

At first, we were hopeless. But for the sake of our strong n deep love for BSB, we won’t give up. Even though we had to face so many obstacles especially with those crazy dancing moves. But, what else can we do? Doesn't life must go on?
Luckily, 3 of us were a quick learner. They taught the rest how to move one by one from the very first verse until the last chorus. Even there were some disputes and debates about what to do and how to move our ass, slowly but sure, we’ve finally got our dance moves right. Thanks to those You tube videos that played over and over again on our laptop's screen for guidance. FYI, we also have our dance moves recorded on every practice so then we could see our mistakes and learn from it.

To be honest, those dance moves were exhausting. And we were so damn tired. In addition, the capacity of our friend’s house that we used for practice made us impossible to move freely. So that’s why we decided to rent a professional studio for the next ones. Yup, this gotta be serious n no more fooling around. Love makes U do anything!! Hehehe

We agreed to have a rehearsal every Sunday. Why?? The answer was logic, coz we live far from each other and some of us have to work beside study in college or high school. Every week, there were always have new moves to learn. And every week, there were always have a funny story to tell. From one of us got her ankle sprained, until got our studio high jacked by one of local popular bands.

We were already booked a studio for our third practice from a week before, until we found out the studio manager mixed us with this local popular band that also had a practice at the same time in the same studio with us. So, as the result we couldn’t use that studio!! Oooooohhh!!! How could we not furious??!!! AAARRGGGHHH!! Be patient…That was what we need. And yes, even though we were mad, patience must come first. The studio manager apologized that the place had mistakenly taken. But after 2 hours arguing, they finally gave us another studio as a solution. A smaller and see through studio without a mirror (a must item for practicing dancing or theater!). We had to asked them to cover with curtains so then people can’t see. OMG!! Another solution they offered, a free big studio for 2 hours rent next week! Yipppiieee!!! NOW THAT’S JUST FAIR!!

Also on the 3rd practice, we discussed about T-shirt that we're gonna wear. Some of the design examples were given and we chose a white T-shirt written "BSB - STRAIGHT TO MY HEART" complete with the red bloody heart shape symbol melts whoever see it. In addition a black T-shirt for our leaders, written "FLASHMOB WORLDWIDE BSB" complete with 4 dancing people on the front and “STAFF” written on the back. Awesome!! At the end of the practice, we did a photograph session as we're getting closer as one big happy Backstreet family!!! Ooooo

On the 4th practice, we look soooooo cool!! The uniform shirt has done, and we practiced wearing it!!! Awesome!!! Even our dances moves got better n better n we were glad. After the practice, some of us went to Monas. Monas is Jakarta’s landmark. We decided to use that place for shooting because it represents our beloved city. There was one funny story when we were about to head home!! Because the gate was too far, we decided to barge out through a gap of broken fence. And one of us got stuck in the middle of it!!! Lol she got her shirt ripped off and scolded by an old man. Hahahaha.. It’s was soooo funny for anyone who see it. Oops!!!

Right on 17 April 2010, we gathered in Monas at 7 am to shoot the FLASHMOB BSB - STRAIGHT TO MY HEART. Even though there were thousands of strangers watching from far under the big tree (bcoz of the extremely hot weather in Jakarta!!), we didn't feel ashamed at all. We were soooo confident!! With each costumes style, we were still cohesive wearing white or black T-shirt, blue jeans, n some wore veils. Well, we looked beautifully eccentric!! And all that wouldn't be complete if we didn't follow each beats of STRAIGHT TO MY HEART.

Ain’t care with the extremely hot weather burned our skin, the music beats flew inside our souls. With an extraordinary smile n euphoria, our body moved right here n right there. Totally awesome!!! We completed our last session for the video with straightened a banner written “JAKARTA LOVES BSB” complete with a heart picture in it, and screamed "WE LOVE YOU!!" in front of the camera. And that’s a wrap, people!!!!! We tossed the sky and feel proud we did something amazing for our Backstreet Boys’ 17th anniversary.

So, that’s the story of our Backstreet Boys Flashmob from day 1 until the big day. From scratch until final moment. For us, this project is not only a dance project. We found each other through the whole journey and we became one big happy Backstreet family. And that’s the most important.
Until the next project!!!
With all of our heart,

Nieca – Anggun – Divin – Desy – Nieta
Phyta – Tiu – Ani – Nunie – Lika
Fia – Dita – Lisa – Noe – Angel

BACKSTREET BOYS FANS IN JAKARTA – INDONESIA